God Has A Sense of Humor --and I'm sure He gets a laugh out of me!

Like a shot out of a cannon, a kite lost to the wind, or hours wasted watching a pathetic movie some things can never be undone or brought back to enjoy again.

Today I hit the "send" button on a query letter about my book--ush and ugh, I can't put it back in the comfortable land of mere dreams and possibilities. The butterflies in my stomach are getting dizzy from all their fluttering and spinning and "what if" disaster imaginings which only writer-butterflies conjure up. But it's over and done with. Now I just wait for the results, and I'll deal with those when the time comes.

Despite my fears that the results will include a good deal of self-imposed butt-kicking, I really have to let this go. I had this query letter written over a month ago, and I was quite content to just let it lie dormant in a Word file. Content to wait for another impossible re-write or quiet dismissal as the rest of life stifles it out. But then this preacher preaches words that God uses to burn off the insulating blanket of inertia, and talks about how we can't let the barrier of perfectionism stop us from being available to God's plan . . . well, thanks a lot, preacher. Who told you I was a perfectionist? You torched my major excuse ala Ecclesiastes 11:4-6, and I can't be watching for the perfect alignment of circumstance, culture and blog popularity. It's up to God.

4 Whoever watches the wind will not plant; whoever looks at the clouds will not reap.
5 As you do not know the path of the wind,or how the body is formed in a mother’s womb,
so you cannot understand the work of God, the Maker of all things.
6 Sow your seed in the morning, and at evening let not your hands be idle,
for you do not know which will succeed, whether this or that, or whether both will do equally well.

Thanks for checking in on me. You won't believe what's on my schedule for Sunday, Deo Volente!